CHAPTER 11

Success!

Then we went home and we went to bed. There was no fireworks, we just hugged each other and went to sleep. Li-yu had a bit of a period.

We slept well and the next morning the muscle tremors came back so we went to the chemist, but he said I’m not allowed to give you another Emergency Prescription because it’s not a Sunday and the Doctors are open today – you must see a doctor.

The weather was heavy rain. We found a Doctors and we were told we could have an appointment later that day. But I said to Li-yu, let’s go back Chester – I have some tablets there and we can sleep in the cellar – it is nice. She reluctantly agreed, so we caught the train back to Chester which is just as well as nearly all my money had gone and I needed to report back to the hospital soon.

We got to my house, we walked into the cellar. Sometime ago I had converted the cellar into a music room. There was a double futon – very comfortable – the room was a little damp.

Li-yu saw the futon, put her bag down and said I’m staying! She loved it. Then we went for a walk in town. I took her to the Day Centre and we just enjoyed the hotels and tourist attractions in Chester.
That night I was a little naughty. I treated Li-yu with great tenderness and she responded and I sexually penetrated her but we didn’t thrust, we just united. I’ve got her now I thought.

So, this situation carried on for about 10 days. At some stage I had to go and stay in the hospital for a couple of nights – but Li-yu wasn’t upset by this. We talked about marriage and both of us were happy at this prospect, Li-yu had money and she said she would buy and run a B&B – she would be the boss lady. I know I wanted to build a better world, but I would do whatever Li-yu said – she came first, my priority in life had been changed.

And then Li-yu told me her holiday was over and she had to return to London. I didn’t complain, I knew that this had to happen. I walked her back to the coach stop and she got on and she left me.

**** So Analysis ***

There were no deaths around me this time!

In Sun Myung Moon’s Principle there is the story of the Foundation to Receive the Messiah. To receive the messiah you first must establish the Foundation of Faith and then the Foundation of Substance.

So, the Foundation of Faith is made by living a life of faith and successfully making conditions of faith. I was good at this.
The Foundation of Substance is made by establishing unity between two people in so doing the Foundation of Faith is spread from one person to two, where the second person is claimed from Satan to come back to God. The best example of this is the Biblical story of Jacob and Esau. Jacob won over the heart of Esau and they hugged each other as reconciled brothers.

But in my case my Esau was a girl and I believe I successfully established a Foundation of Substance with her and God blessed us.

What had I done wrong with Carole, Catherine and Nerys –

I was living in a period of Indirect Dominion ie God couldn’t dwell within my directly like Jesus, but I was able to make conditions of indemnity which allowed me to receive both types of Holy Spirit – the air and water types.

When both types of Holy Spirit are strong enough you are considered to have successfully established the Foundation of Faith. And then God brings a Cain type person from the fallen world which you should unite with to establish the Foundation of Substance.

When you establish the Foundation of Faith and the Foundation of Substance you have then established the Foundation to Receive the Messiah and you can be blessed by God.

So, I believe that with Carole, Catherine and Nerys these girls were my Cain.

I knew from the Principle that if I have sex with these girls I will die – like Adam in the Fall.

But God was working.

If Carole had given me so much principled love for me to be driven from this position and to risk my life to have sex with her this would have been a successful Foundation of Substance.

Adam fell by risking his life disobey the Commandment.

So, I think God intended that I would be so motivated out of pure love for Carole that I would risk my spiritual life to disobey the Principle.

When this didn’t happen Satan invaded the condition and the rape and murder of her student occurred. Also, you should note that this crime was a leading story on the national BBC TV News programs – it was a national level condition.

When I was driven by Li-yu’s love to tenderly and gently couple with her it was a successful Foundation of Substance. There were no murders or deaths and we were both literally in heaven. Heaven is state of mind – not a place. Li-yu and I were in heaven!
This is a secret of God’s providence that I have learnt and it is the way to go to heaven.

And the Abel and Cain type spirit world watches as this couple unites and because the unity is the same sequence of events as the Fall but with a good and pure motive the spirit world respects these actions and then blesses the couples life by serving them directly.

I don’t know how accurate these statements are, the psychiatrist would say I am fantasising but it’s the only way I can make any sense of them.