CHAPTER 1.

The Early Years

I was born on 21st of the 3rd month 1960. If you are follower of Sun Myung Moon you will know that 21 and 3 are holy numbers and 1960 is a blessed year. But I didn’t know that at the time.

I was born in North West England – on the outskirts of Manchester. My father was a highly skilled engineer earning a hard living from work in various factories, often working on the maintenance of manufacturing machines. Mum worked as a kind of accounts clerk calculating worker’s wages. I had an elder brother who was very talented at making things.

My family had no faith, they believed in science and engineering. They believed in people being free to think whatever they liked but then choosing the logical conclusions of their own thoughts. I learnt how to masturbate at a young age. I did it as much as I could because I had no reason not to – Mum and Dad ignored my habit and Mum washed my sheets with no complaint.

Life in the suburbs of Manchester was pretty good. After I left Primary school I went to a Grammar school which was very civil and high quality. But Dad hated working for other people and he had a dream of working for himself. So, when I was 12 he bought a run-down café/restaurant in a remote area of Anglesey. I didn’t realise this at the time but this was a poor, underprivileged Welsh Nationalist stronghold.

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From the first day in school until I left I was bullied by an underclass of Welsh students.

I enjoyed the sciences and maths which I studied in the early mornings in a sunny window whilst listening to uplifting music such as the Beatles, The Beach Boys, The Hollies and the Kinks.

At that time there was film footage of a famine in Ethiopia. Children were starving to death. I was touched by this – I thought Western rich people were selfish – I thought if I had to give up some of my meal to give to such a child I would do so.

So, this made me think that I’d like to use my life to build a perfect world.

So, I wondered, Why isn’t the world perfect? I realised it’s because individuals aren’t perfect. Then I thought, I’m an individual – so I am not perfect.

From my chemistry I knew that if you had a pure saturated solution of copper sulphate it would produce perfect crystals. But, if there is an impurity in the solution, crystals will not form. From this is deduced that I am born with an impurity. So, I decided that my goal in life would be to build a perfect world by discovering the impurity in myself and once I had discovered it, telling the world.

I did extremely well in my O Levels – the top student in science. But when it came to my A Levels I had a problem, because there was no course available on how to build a perfect world. I was going to have to work out everything by myself and through my own research. So, I idled away my senior education in school, achieved poor exam results and applied to a poor quality Polytechnic in Liverpool doing a degree in Electrical and Electronic Engineering.

I was trying to observe life and people for clues but I was getting nowhere. But then I had a thought, Maybe somebody has done the research already? I thought if I was such a person, how would they meet someone like me? And I thought I would go to the busiest shopping street and stop me.

About a year later, I was in a particularly happy mood and I strode onto the main pedestrianised shopping street and I saw a scruffy interesting Oriental lady. This was Yukiko. She stopped me and then started talking about world peace. She started talking and didn’t stop. She talked for 20 mins and the only word I said was ‘Hmm’.

Then she invited me to come back for a coffee, she looked very surprised when I said, Yes.

She took me to an office which had a lot of Japanese girls with English guests. I found an impressive book there called, Divine Principle. I opened it and read the first sentence – ‘Everyone without exception is striving to achieve happiness.’ I sat and thought, I’ve never thought of

that. But, if everyone is striving to be happy, why isn’t the world happy? Is a drunk, a criminal, a child, a school teacher etc trying to be happy? After much thought, I thought Yes.

So I left after the coffee and arranged to come back.

When I came back Yukiko was waiting and she had made a card with artwork and a painting and she stretched out to give it to me – a precious gift. But as she offered it, an ignorant lad grabbed it in mid-air. There were many complaints at the coffee table and then he was made to give it to me.

I went home in a state of trance. What did all this mean? Who is this beautiful Japanese girl – what does she want? What is the rest of the Divine Principe about?

There then began a honeymoon period of several weeks of happy bliss between me and Yukiko.

But she never explained to me God’s plan to build an ideal world and I criticised her for this. This was very important, because it was my reason to have a friendship wit her.

And then I became frightened. Yukiko was living in a church centre whereas I was living in the community. As doubts grew in my mind I became more and more critical and I decided that I would seduce Yukiko. I started to fantasise about her when I masturbated at night. Evil.

When I told Yukiko I wanted a relationship with her she was very cross and stopped seeing me. I thought about it and I repented and decided that I wanted a friendship with Yukiko even if all she ever was, was a friend. And she reluctantly accepted me back.