CHAPTER 8.

A new start

The interview went well and I was offered the job as a staff member of this small company I was to be called a Development Engineer.

All my NHS care team regarded this as a brilliant opportunity and the medication was stopped and I moved into a bed sit in Wrexham and started work. I was happy.

The large house was empty but then a young French girl moved in, Carole a French school teacher. She was very sexy! But I was careful to just see her as someone to witness to.

I really got into my job, it was intellectually interesting and I was a key staff member to the success of this small company. But, after 4 weeks of being off the medication symptoms of the psychosis began to return. It was an awareness of a Love or Air Type spiritual element (I sensed it as air). But it was strange and difficult to obey. We should obey the Holy Spirit. I could not control. I thought I’m not telling my parents or my doctor after how they had treated me so cruelly!

At first Carole and I were alone in the house and there was a definite attraction between us. She seemed to want sex, but I knew The Principle and I regarded this as evil and I just tried to witness to her.
After a few weeks she asked me out for a drink and we went to a nearby pub. Once there she announced she was inviting a male school teacher to her flat next Friday night and she was going to have sex with him.

I was devastated, I regarded this as a failure in terms of my efforts to witness to her.

So, that Friday came and went and then maybe the following week Carole told me that one of her French students, a 12 year old girl called Anne Humphries was missing.

Soon, after it was on national news that this poor young girl had been sexually assaulted and murdered in Wrexham.

Now, I knew the Principle and the Principle says that Eve had sex with Lucifer and this destroyed the God/Mind bond between God and man. After Eve’s sexual acts Cain killed Abel and that this destroyed the Mind/Body unity and so this was just like cause and effect. I regarded Carole abandoning me to have sex was repeating Eve’s sin and that the real life murder of Anne was cause and effect.

Thinking of what Yukiko would say – I blamed Carole as well as myself. I was upset. And the stress on me just got worse and worse which made me more and more spiritual. What was I doing wrong?

After sometime Carole left for France and I became so ill in work that I was sacked. I did find an agency job in the print room of a large company, but the wages were very low and I couldn’t live.

So, I made the decision to give the spirituality my full attention – I bought a tent and left my accommodation and began to live in a nearby woods. I loved it! I remember moving out and putting my head down on my sleeping bag and the owls were hooting and the wind was rustling the trees leaves – it was the right thing to do. God was there.

After a while I started taking the bus into the mountains of Snowdonia. I collected welfare and then lived a very poor lifestyle, shopping in local shops and cooking on a gas stove.

I Loved Snowdonia. I’d camp in the outskirts and only go into town for food. I had to return to Wrexham every two weeks to collect my welfare.

I remember one night there was a thunderstorm and I walked in the rain, in the dark, along a busy road for miles to Llangollen. I couldn’t find anywhere to camp so I walked through Llangollen until I came to a path. As I walked on the path I crushed snails under my boots which I believe were on the path looking for mates – I felt so sad. When I eventually got to the canal the ground was too hard for tent pegs so I had a sleepless night inside the tent holding the tent down in the wind.

Then, for some reason, I moved to Chester – this became my welfare collection point. I walked the canals a lot and I found a magic island.

This was an island of land cut off from the public by 2 motorways and the canal – a triangle of isolated land. I decided to build a home there. I bought a spade for about £4 and at the highest point of the land I dug a trench 10 feet long, 4 feet wide and 4 feet deep. Then I found unused pieces of timbre and placed them a cross the trench as beams and then I found large flat and wide sheets of wood that I used to form the roof. Then I put across a piece of plastic sheeting and put soil back on top. I had a hatch on a hinge that I used for access.

Then a trance like status came over me. I was praying constantly in a deluded fantasy state. I hardly left the den.

I had concluded that my spirit guide, Yukiko, or whoever she was, wasn’t strong enough for my ambitions. So, I thought Who could replace her – and I thought The messiah’s daughter. The only name I knew was Injin – so I prayed that she would be my new mediator.

I thought nothing more of it and went to sleep but in the early hours I awakened and floating above me there was a naked Injin. I was naughty, I started to masturbate – I was totally obsessed with sex at that time. Injin just laughed and joined in and we orgasmed very quickly. Then, she possessed me completely. I wasn’t just me – I was two – me and Injin.